Listening to: nothing
Reading: don quixote
Watching: natha

i like having good days where everything falls into place.

it feels nice and it makes me happy.

Mood: happy
Listening to: my name is jonas - weezer
Reading: don quixote
Watching: amos perros [ or whatever ]

a few things have been on my mind:

1) love. i wont mention much about it, its for myself to think about, and i think i've thought about it enough.

2) moving. i cant wait. i want to go somewhere where i know no one and not start new, but rather just meet new people and expierence new things. but really, i cant wait to live by the mountains. it wasnt until i went to germany that i started to love mountains and being in them. while in munich we hiked up the alps and i remember walking with my friend and we both stopped in pure beauty of what was around us. nature. never before that moment have i ever loved it so much. so when i'm in boulder i'll be right by the rocky's and i think i wouldn't want it any other way.

3) sick. being sick. i dont like it one bit, at all.

4) school. i'm out. i'm done. at least, i cant wait to be done.

these day's seem to go by a little too fast for my liking.

elliot smith.
wonderful.
whats more to say?
nothing.

alright so heres how it goes:
i dont know anymore whether i'm a good person or not.
i need a reality check.
i'm bad at relationships.
all kinds.
i'm just akward and make akward situations but will say i ignore them.
who am i becomming?
i want out of here for now.
i want to start a new life.
i want to find out who i am becuase i thought i knew.... and now i'm faltering and i think i'm changing my mind.

and who knew one song could be so powerful?
words are powerful.
thats one thing i learned tonight.

i care about a certain someone and maybe he's not listing.
i felt bad
he was mad.

in the place that i make no mistake, in the place where i have what it takes.

last night made me think:

what if i go to college of dupage and columbia and find out it wasn't what i wanted? that i'm not that good at art and dont compare?
but
what if i go to northern and find out that it wasnt what i wanted?

ah, i dont know.

i'm glad i dont work today, or else i would probably hurt someone. i just want a little time to myself with no one to talk to me. i want to watch full house and the cosby show and eat ice cream in the dark

its jsut that my brother has made so many acomplishments and it always seems that no matter what my parents are trying to get me to not go to columbia.
when we make a deal a month later its changed by them.

people can try to talk to you about these things but just end up saying all the wrong things.

i'm through

/end rant.

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